Mom’s it is so important to be thankful for what you do have and not focus on what you wish you could have….

I realize this now after I look at my two year old daughter sleeping on me. Before she came over to cuddle, my older two had both fallen asleep on me and we carried them to bed. So all three of my beautiful babies fell asleep on mommy tonight, what better way to spend my night? My heart knows how much they love me and I love them.

Painfully, my heart also aches… When I was pregnant with my two year old I had an allergic reaction to a progesterone shot they gave me, which caused a false labor. Not knowing it was the progesterone, after I had my daughter I started taking progesterone only birth control pills. I had never taken birth control before, but with the closeness of our younger two we wanted to wait for the fourth. Well this wait is turning out to be longer and harder than we could ever imagine.

I instantly had a severe reaction to the birth control pills… Long story short I was on it for two weeks til my family doctor figured out what was going on. From the reaction I gained a constant headache, muscle tightness, lock jaw, fatigue, weakness, and burning/tingling. Needless to say are still playing the doctor game to figure out what damage was caused and how to fix it.

However despite all the pain, this mom has BABY FEVER!!! We had been trying for a couple of months when I recently went to my pain specialist and found out I can not take my nerve medicine when pregnant. I backed way off in case I was pregnant. This led to me having a horrible week. In this time I realized my body has too much going on already. It would not be safe to grow a baby. The Lord knowing better than this Mama’s baby fever has watched over us. We are still not pregnant and have to close the factory down til my new neurologist appointment next month.

All of these thoughts in my head caused jealousy and hurt seeing the moms on Facebook expecting or cuddling their new born babies. Jealousy is dangerous and can easily lead us down the wrong path; I knew I had to turn around quick!

But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast and be false to the truth. This is not the wisdom that comes down from above, but is earthly, unspiritual, demonic.

-James 3:14-15 NIV

Here I am; wishing I had another baby, hurting because I am not pregnant, jealous of those who do when I have three beautiful children. There are some women who are unable to have their own children. You women are truly incredibly strong wonder women and amaze me! The Lord has a plan for us and His reasons, it may not be a never just a not right now. Jealousy and anger never makes anyone feel better. Hope, thankfulness, and faith does. Remember to be thankful and cherish what you do have. Do not get caught up on what you wish you had.

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

-Jeremiah 21:11 NIV
give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

-1 Thessalonians 5:18 NIV
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

-John 14:27 NIV


I'm a stay at home mom who loves to write and wants to share positivity!

2 thoughts on “Thankfulness

  1. Thanks for sharing something so personal, I know it’s hard to be that open about something so painful. Keep your chin up, God must have a mighty plan for your next kid! Unfortunately He is just asking you to wait.


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